My light in this madness...? A friend has just gone into labor! A blessing of life among the tears and strife. It brings me to my first tears of the day. I have held back the tides, and must now release. I have been in what-can-I-do mode. luckily we were at my parents' house for the weekend that was supposed to be great...of course it started off great-with our serendipitous anniversary AKA the night we met, and then on our way to my parents' we saw some smoke. Not much concern at first...but I started to feel the smoke in my lungs and went outside to look-oh my! It was a large fire. So I get online and hear how close it is...maybe 8-10miles away and strong winds. Not good. Mom gets a bit worried and Dad teases her for her worrisome attitude. But I'm worried too-so we get online and turn the movie off and see it is bad. Long story kinda short- we went up to the arena on the hill near my parents' house talked with neighbors who had firefighter connections and packed some clothes and stayed the night...it was still kind of far. In the morning it was worse, and all around us so we packed what we could in the cars. We are now all to safety and are praying for no more homes to be taken. My heart aches for my family, friends, and loved ones all the same as well as my community and state. Please pray, send love, and affirmation that all will be well, and look for the silver lining which is so hard to see in the intense flames. My soul is aching; I send all my love to everyone.
But like I said...I have to remember the silver lining...there is hope. There will be change, and lots of it- but with change comes hope. Like a Phoenix, I know my community will rise up and be stronger from this. We may not be able to see it now, or even anytime soon. But already I see the love and compassion spreading-it makes me smile and brings bittersweet tears to my eyes. We have to take care of each other so we can rise up and above this disaster.
We were able to pack pictures and files from the computer, but in the end all that really matters is our loved ones. I felt guilty even being able to grab my keyboard and Christmas toys we've already bought for our son...when so many weren't even able to go home to get anything...I know I must look at what we still have and be thankful-and in doing so I can see that there is so much more that I can do without.
Live in the rhythm of love...and share the bliss!
Even in the wake of tragedy such as this- we need it now more than ever...